Thursday, August 11, 2011


I dunno. Just "hey," I guess. I felt like doing something;writing to someone.

The little fan is on my floor, blowing on me. It reminds me of the summer nights in Cali, we didn't have AC. I'm listening to "Shut Your Eyes" by Snow Patrol...for the third time. I love that song. "Shut your eyes and think of somewhere, somewhere cold and caked with snow." I love that line; I find the cold extremely restful (hence the little fan). Whenever it is crowded, I wish that I was someplace silent and cold. For me, "crowded" can mean there are two other people in the house, not always, but sometimes. I am an introvert. If you know me any at all (I'm playing the song again) you know that I am an introvert. Even if you don't know what an introvert is. I am very shy, and for that reason alone, I am not big on being around lots of people. But being around most people just makes me completely exhausted. I find social gatherings stressful. Especially if something is not going smoothly. The tiniest conflict, of any kind, I cannot stand, if there are people around. (I'm playing the song again.) That is why I like being alone; nothing can go wrong. And if it does, it is really ok. Life can seem so very bad at times. That was random, sorry. Don't get me wrong, here. The people I enjoy being with, I really, really, really enjoy being with. The most awesome times I've ever had, I've been with people. But I do delight in the tranquility (wow, I spelled that right first try ) of solitude.

The song ended. I'd love to stay and talk to you, but I think I'd better go.

Thanks for listening.


Anonymous said...

Julie, I feel the same gatherings are exhausting and stressful, even if it is people I know and love. So, I spend as much quiet and alone time as I am able, letting the peace of it seep into my heart.


Julie said...

:) I've been working on trying to find peace in social gatherings, but I just don't seem to be able too.

Next time you are here for Thanksgiving, and you notice me gone, I am probably by myself enjoying family being here. :)